Liar

So, my wife tells me that I lied when I entered the LDS church, and I pause for a moment before agreeing.

What's going through my head:
"I don't remember lying. I mean, sure I was doing things against the practices of the church, but it wasn't like I didn't know other members that were doing the same thing. It wasn't like I did it out of malice. I just figured it wasn't that big a deal. When I said I wasn't doing it, I wasn't. But it must be so, because it didn't work out. I must have known it wasn't going to work out, so I must've lied in order to get to the point I did."

It's a bit odd, I know, but I don't feel like I was lying. I had every intent of obeying the rules of the church insofar as anyone else I knew did. I suppose that it's more than lip service but less than optimal.

Screw it. I'm out now.